Blood on the Dance Floor
Gonna do a little update on life because I haven't done a journal in awhile. I was born, yeah, this month on April 20... yeah... Hate my birthday because of many reason, but whatever.
I'm not that depressed as usually because Danielle says she'll buy me my rat, as long as I get all the proper requirements to care for it. Super happy about that. :3 I am doing some resource on how to properly care for rats. I plan on doing better with this animal than with my others because my family ruined any hope for my dogs, and Figero is a skittish cat. I want to teach my rat some tricks and actually own a more social animal that likes people. My dogs are super clannish. Plus my rat would be smaller than my dogs, I know something that is actually smaller than my dogs. So I can take it with me to places. I plan to teach it how to walk on a leash, seen people do that. That's awesome.
Buying everything initially is just going to be expensive, but I can cut corners on a cage for now. I hate to use the word cage... proper housing. I am gonna keep my rat in pen my family built from wood and chicken wire for some animal, I don't know for what animal but we used it to keep the baby rabbits in recently... and Lana.
We had it prior to that, I think we built it for the chickens when they were small and just kept it all these years. I remember keeping the kittens in it, but it wasn't painted then. I know we had it before the rabbits. It's flip upside down in the photo so the rabbits could eat the grass, the button and top are made of wood. It's fairly big, rats like to climb so for now I will keep will keep mine in this in my room, until I can afford a proper housing. So there's something to look forward too that probably isn't gonna fail like everything else has for my birthday. Having a rat probably will help with my anxiety. I have been having a lot of stress because of my parents and whatnot. I am fine on the weekends but during the week I am not. I don't really plan on doing anything for my birthday because it is on a Monday. Don't know what to name my rat though, I have ideas but I like to wait and meet the one I plan on taking home to pick a name.
Practicing drawing comics because there is motivation. Not yet comfortable with the idea of doing commissions for money. It's the money part that scares me the most but that is what I need the most. I don't know why it's so damn scary, it shouldn't be but my body goes into flight or fight mode, and nothings wrong. I think having a little animal that I need to care for will help. I need more motivation to over come my fears to actually do something about my situation that will also comfort me at the same time. Rats are easy to care for, food not too terribly expensive and they're small a cute. :3 I may not be able to own a meerkat or a bat, but I can have a rat, which is like the next best thing. Yeahz!
That has been on my page for like ever, along with the other favorite animals.